Slight Changes

"Life is so unfair. Why be so cruel right now?" "I told you. Telling them is a bad idea!" I typed on the box. "Will go to your doctor." Marianne said. "It's in Manila." "Oh. Then will go to Mediatrix." This conversation will not gonna end itself. Life is so tragic. How can be this my fault when I am the one injured?! My mom is busy. Dad is busier so it left me no choice but to stay home and get contented that I will never be healed again. "It's not bad! After all, I am still alright after 6 years of the fainting thing". It's what I always used to say but now, I don't think it's a so-good idea. Why did it happened again? I mean I was so strong this past few days. (Ok. Not that Superman strong but I am strong) Besides that, I can run fast or try to catch my breath fast and recover fast! Today is a NO day. I am not only the one who is sick in this house. (Besides my conscience and my inner being). My brother is sick too! He was worst. I go upstairs every 5 minutes just to check on him. He is boiling hot. It makes me feel sweaty when I am near him. This is a BAD DAY! I don't know what to think! There's just so many of them! I don't know how to be depressed and that is how I should be acting. Everything that is happening is depressing! Everything is a mess! How come I feel so relaxed?! "If I'll mess up my mind, the body will. The environment will. The whole world will!"