Metanoia: Nights and Days

"Summer's about to end. School's about to start. Nothing's new."

It's days away from the tortures of the school gate and alarm clocks. Add the lousy mornings to the list. Sometimes, I want to get up and be ready. Oftentimes, I'll stay in bed even though the alarm clock rang. I can imagine what time will I be sleeping in the nights where, usually, I accomplish my assignments and then wake up before the rooster even cocks. Oh Gadd. It's hard to imagine.

School has always been a home to me. It's where I want to be when I don't like the aura in our house. It's nice to stay at the terrace of the Chez Rafael and then see all the students relaxing themselves on the hot seats of their school vans. Here and there, there's a lot of chatting and showing off but, I never thought of doing the same thing they are doing.

I love drawing landscapes and sceneries when I was a kid while waiting for our maid to fetch me on the hallway of my former school. But now, when the maid is so out of high school girls and when I stay at the terrace of Chez Rafael, I became one of them. The chatterboxes.

Sometimes, I get lost *and now, I am at lost. Sorry for the randomness of my ideas.* because the place I stay during free hours in the afternoon is where I find myself. Nakakaligaw kasi ng pagkatao kapag ang mga kasama mo ay ibang iba sa'yo. The reason why I am telling this is that. I don't want to be the same person again.

This summer made so many changes. I suddenly realized that I had many dreams. I didn't even know that it existed.

I want to sky dive.
I want to play the piano.
I want to be a professional guitar lead.
I want to be reincarnated. (I know it's not a Catholic thing to believe in.)
I want to be a cartoonist of "K-Zone" Magazine.
I want to be a part of an orchestra.
I want to meet Beethoven and play his symphonies.
I want to be a lead vocalist to an indie band.
I want to be a famous painter.
I want to be melodic and have a music-inspired life.