It's Goodbye

"I just can't accept the fact that I made it through! I got over you!"

I was just so happy that everytime I remember the memories we've had, I can't picture his face. I can see what he was doing but all I see is the memory. Not the face.

I have deleted everything that makes me remember him. The picture phone was empty from the wrecking, heart-breaking fact I have known from the past few months. I have thrown letters that makes me feel I should come back to you. I have been stupid for burning up the papers and doodles during C.L class that had your name over it. *Yeah. I usually waste a pad of Intermediate paper during CL time. I posted this just now because I know that I am really over him.

It's hard to tell since I still cry at night on what had happened to my life. My life has been silent since I was Level 7. Not until now. Not until "The IT" happened.

But this changes brought me to a new home. New friends. New life. I've become a once emotional-at-heart girl into something who-would-laugh-out-loud-at-the-middle-of-silence girl. *Woah! That's long!

I saw the world. I've become aware. I was REBORN.

I crazily talk to my mom like: Yow! What's up? and she just laugh out loud and reply to the same language. I am still a Home Girl but I like watching movies in THEATERS now. My parents gave me freedom. *Somehow. I can walk from La Salle to McDonalds without fear of getting hit by the bus! I was NEW and I was so happy!

I thank my parents for having been there. They have been supporting though it made me feel they are betraying me but now, I know.

"He is not my world. I can have a world wherein someone would be happy to share it with me."

"He has his own world that maybe he would like to share to someone else and I am HAPPY! So HAPPY for him. :)"